à contre-coeur

Adverb

à contrecœur (not comparable)

1. Reluctantly, unwillingly, with disgust.
   • Xtien was young at the time and had met him after her father's death, didn't know then what she knows now, and when the man died there she was alone with her child – forsaken, without a penny. À contrecœur went on the streets, became ill, was taken to hospital, in all sorts of trouble …1882 May 14, Vincent van Gogh, “Letter from Vincent van Gogh to Theo van Gogh”, in Masters of Art – Vincent van Gogh, Hastings, East Sussex: Delphi Classics, published 2014